Lessons in Forever

oh my gawd...

my uncle drove me home today after dinner and the guards thought he was a boyfriend!

oh... my.. gawd...

do I look like the I-date-older-men-kind?

well maybe I do but that's beside the point...

damn.

Anyway, I am inspired to go and learn golf.. between the hundred dollar voucher for golf lessons at the club and the full set of clubs my uncle is giving me.. I don't see why not.. and besides, ther actually IS eyecandy on the driving range! saw this bunch of cute guys there when I went there to see my uncle putt some balls.

Next on the agenda.. golf lessons with ang moh coach uncle met at the club. heard he's slightly old, kinda cute! Damn I sound desperate..

Next on the agenda.. do NOT act desperate infront of the cute ang moh coach!

now I sound like a SPG..

Next on the agenda.. do NOT act like a SPG!!!

Couldn't bring myself to do any work today.. the procrastination bug has bitten me really hard today. three days and counting to DAP submission...

I know it's not so hard to write and crap out a shitty essay, but what bugs me is that I have to pull references (at least 10 of 'em!) and I can't bring myself to write a shitty essay which I know I'll probably do in the wrong frame of mind. I actually WANT to write a good essay, something that'll make people sit back and think 'hey! she's actually got a point there!' but all my essaying skills are failing me. Can it be that I'm running out of juices for crap? Or is it just that I can't form my own opinions anymore? I'm more inclined to believe the second.. I just don't have the passion for anything anymore. Nothing makes my blood bubble nowadays.. except maybe a good movie (LOTR!!!), a cute guy (ORLI!!!).. I really can't think of anything else. The last interesting thing I think I wrote was the phallic archi piece in on of my ealier blogs.. I hate to think that I'm being assimilated by the system and lulled into complacency, unable to form my own thoughts and opinions outside of what is currently accepted. I just don't feel the urge to think anymore. It's so much easier not...

The temptation is so great.. to do absolutely nothing..

Some days I just feel like a slug.. I don't want to do anything or even get out of bed because I know there's nothng interesting for me to do 'cept go online and check out my favourite sites and see if there's anything new.. but there seldom is.

I WANT TO WRITE A GOOD ESSAY!

but I just can't bring myself to continue the crap I left off earlier.

I want to write a good piece of interllectual shite that'll NOT be like the mediocre crap that I usually pass up.. I want to make a difference.. but I don't know how. I want to impress but I'm just too boinking lazy!

oh yes.. that's my new swear word.. 'boink'. you know that lil piece of brit slang.. to boink someone.. it sounds cuter than fuck anyday..

Hmmmmmmmm... just came back from a massage at the spa my 'rents go to at goodwood park hotel.. fanfuckintastic! It was so good I feel asleep three times and the masseuse had to wake me up to get me to haul ass so that she could get on with the massage hehehe...

Masseuse was gooooooood.. worked out the kinks in my back that I've been feeling all week, crouched infront of the 'puter scurrying to complete my work in the cold hours of the morning... can't help the cold.. my sister needs the air con to sleep and wrapping a blanket around myself while doing work is the surest way to fall asleep and NOT get any work done at all. Not that I really get much work done even if I don't but hey..

Now I have the whole weekend ahead of me and I still have tons of work to do.. but one at the time.. I've learnt my lesson.. trying to juggle two or three projects at one time is NOT a good idea..

I can't wait for DAP to be over.. I'm dying to hand it up and get it over with.. if only I had something to write. SIGH! I've never had problems with writing before.. why now??? *grumblerumblebumblebzzzzzzz*

Consulted the faery oracle the day before regarding my mental and creative blockages.. I got the same card twice and the same way around as well! The first time I wasn't really sure but when it happened a second time? I'm not going to argue with the lil people.. one NEVER wins arguments with lil people. Anyway, it was a good card.. one of my favourites actually, so that bodes well.. and a miracle is supposed to happen and creativity is supposed to start zinging in soon.. I just hope it'll be in time for me to submit a bloody brilliant DAP..

HAHAHAHAHA!

I've got two deadlines tomorrow with nothing to show for it and I'm still websurfing!

HAHAHAHAHA!

I've got a 2000 word essay with references to write and I'm only on 680++ with vague references!!

HAHAHAHAHA!

i'm SOoooo gonna die...

I have so much work just sitting in the back of my mind waiting to be done..
They can continue cooling their arses cos I'm not touching them yet!
At least not now.

I can't believe I let things pile up so bad again but I STILL can't bring myself to do my work.
I don't know why.. maybe it's just the daunting thought of the monstrous amount of work I have to do.

My DAP sucks and I don't have enough relevant references.. I am so gonna die...

But I did get my new links section up.. see??

*said in a small teensy voice* at least I did something... right?

I feel like such an underachiever, looking at some of my harder working and more productive classmates scurrying to do that national day logo over the weekend..

Am starting to feel the guilt sink in... no wait.. I think that's just my stomach growling..