Thursday, September 06, 2007
I'm sorry I've been away for so long...
I've been unfaithful and I'm sorry.
Sometimes something all nice and shiny and new comes along and you can't help but be attracted to it and tag along for the ride and sometimes the ride isn't what you expect it to be and you come crawling back to your old flame begging for forgiveness and a second chance. Nothing like the old and familiar...
I fell in love once and it was a turbulent ride, blown along by winds that brought along the scent of high adventure, endless possibilities and perhaps pots of gold at the end of every rainbow. The boy being the boy never did quite think of me... not quite. I guess I was a stand in of sorts, something "new" that warranted a closer inspection but nothing more. That was the first time I ever fell head over heels in love, or rather in love with love.
Now on hindsight the mists clear and everything stands out in stark contrast. In love with love. I rather like that concept. Everyday was such a thrilling ride. The air smelt cleaner and everything was radiant and it was significantly harder to see the ugliness that assaulted you everyday. It injected possibility into my hopelessly pessimistic nature and everything was fine. Love is the rose-tinted sunglass that those in love put on when in love. If only everyday was like that even when you aren't in love. It's like in the movies.. like when the detective in roger rabbit stripped aside reality and went into cartoon land. Entirely surreal. He loved another girl. Silly me really. No one in their right mind would pin hopes like that on one person. It's too much pressure to bear. I stared after him while he stared after her and she obliviously ran along chasing butterflies with another guy. Funny stuff now that I think of it. I've learnt much since then. I've learnt to dig in my ABTs to stop headlong tumbles down slopes. I've bungy jumped once and thankfully the elastic held. Lesson learnt. Take things slow... someone advised. I agree wholeheartedly. If anything happens it happens. Don't look too much into it. Afterall, curiosity does tend to kill the cat and from what I've seen chasing dustbunnies only ends up in barfing up hairballs.
I've been unfaithful and I'm sorry.
Sometimes something all nice and shiny and new comes along and you can't help but be attracted to it and tag along for the ride and sometimes the ride isn't what you expect it to be and you come crawling back to your old flame begging for forgiveness and a second chance. Nothing like the old and familiar...
I fell in love once and it was a turbulent ride, blown along by winds that brought along the scent of high adventure, endless possibilities and perhaps pots of gold at the end of every rainbow. The boy being the boy never did quite think of me... not quite. I guess I was a stand in of sorts, something "new" that warranted a closer inspection but nothing more. That was the first time I ever fell head over heels in love, or rather in love with love.
Now on hindsight the mists clear and everything stands out in stark contrast. In love with love. I rather like that concept. Everyday was such a thrilling ride. The air smelt cleaner and everything was radiant and it was significantly harder to see the ugliness that assaulted you everyday. It injected possibility into my hopelessly pessimistic nature and everything was fine. Love is the rose-tinted sunglass that those in love put on when in love. If only everyday was like that even when you aren't in love. It's like in the movies.. like when the detective in roger rabbit stripped aside reality and went into cartoon land. Entirely surreal. He loved another girl. Silly me really. No one in their right mind would pin hopes like that on one person. It's too much pressure to bear. I stared after him while he stared after her and she obliviously ran along chasing butterflies with another guy. Funny stuff now that I think of it. I've learnt much since then. I've learnt to dig in my ABTs to stop headlong tumbles down slopes. I've bungy jumped once and thankfully the elastic held. Lesson learnt. Take things slow... someone advised. I agree wholeheartedly. If anything happens it happens. Don't look too much into it. Afterall, curiosity does tend to kill the cat and from what I've seen chasing dustbunnies only ends up in barfing up hairballs.
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| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Very High |
| Schizoid: | Moderate |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | High |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | Very High |
| Dependent: | High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
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