Thursday, July 29, 2004
My kitten passed away 2 days ago, I think late wednesday evening.
God rest her feline soul.
I cried so hard I got a headache.
Apparently my maid told my mom that Kimi seemed gaspy when she fed her that afternoon and my mom said to wait till I come back but when I came back she had already passed on.
I was like, 'Why didn't anybody tell me this earlier?'
'Why didn't you bring her to the vet?'
Apparently they thought she could wait till I got back.
Kimi seemed fine when I left for work that morning!
Everything seemed to go wrong that day. I overslept in the morning because I got back home late from work the day before, RUSHING to clear deadlines for the ads due before luch the next day because of that STUPID department meeting, and was late for work. Had to go for that STUPID meeting (read - 'thrashin out' session between high powered and highly vocal department heads), a FUCKIN waste of time which could've been spent more productively. Had to OT late because everyjob was held up by that stupid meeting. And for the grand finale, I come back home, dead tired and hungry because I hadn't eaten all day, (had to miss lunch because I had so much WORK!) only to find my Kimi D E A D.
If I didn't have to go for that meeting I would have had time to do all my jobs and because I didn't have that time I had to do OT. If I didn't have to do OT I would have been home earlier and I MIGHT HAVE SAVED KIMI!
Why didn't anyone TELL ME that Kimi was not well???
Fuck it all.
I can't stand to see that big empty dog cage that was her temporary home in my room anymore so I had my maid take it downstairs. I couldn't even touch the thing.
I hope wherever she is she's in a better place with more than I could ever provide her. I have no mercy for anyone who tries to convince me that cats have not souls.
She was the only one I ever cried for.
In those two and a half short weeks, I'd grown to love her so much that I cringe a little each time I look at the place where her cage used to be or that I expect to hear a tiny meow everytime I step into the room.
This is to Kimi.
for lighting up my life even for such a short span of time, for teaching me that there's light beyond the emotional limbo.
To see the promise of such life to be wrenched from an innocent creature like Kimi is absolutely crushing.
God rest her feline soul.
I cried so hard I got a headache.
Apparently my maid told my mom that Kimi seemed gaspy when she fed her that afternoon and my mom said to wait till I come back but when I came back she had already passed on.
I was like, 'Why didn't anybody tell me this earlier?'
'Why didn't you bring her to the vet?'
Apparently they thought she could wait till I got back.
Kimi seemed fine when I left for work that morning!
Everything seemed to go wrong that day. I overslept in the morning because I got back home late from work the day before, RUSHING to clear deadlines for the ads due before luch the next day because of that STUPID department meeting, and was late for work. Had to go for that STUPID meeting (read - 'thrashin out' session between high powered and highly vocal department heads), a FUCKIN waste of time which could've been spent more productively. Had to OT late because everyjob was held up by that stupid meeting. And for the grand finale, I come back home, dead tired and hungry because I hadn't eaten all day, (had to miss lunch because I had so much WORK!) only to find my Kimi D E A D.
If I didn't have to go for that meeting I would have had time to do all my jobs and because I didn't have that time I had to do OT. If I didn't have to do OT I would have been home earlier and I MIGHT HAVE SAVED KIMI!
Why didn't anyone TELL ME that Kimi was not well???
Fuck it all.
I can't stand to see that big empty dog cage that was her temporary home in my room anymore so I had my maid take it downstairs. I couldn't even touch the thing.
I hope wherever she is she's in a better place with more than I could ever provide her. I have no mercy for anyone who tries to convince me that cats have not souls.
She was the only one I ever cried for.
In those two and a half short weeks, I'd grown to love her so much that I cringe a little each time I look at the place where her cage used to be or that I expect to hear a tiny meow everytime I step into the room.
This is to Kimi.
for lighting up my life even for such a short span of time, for teaching me that there's light beyond the emotional limbo.
To see the promise of such life to be wrenched from an innocent creature like Kimi is absolutely crushing.
Monday, July 26, 2004
I know I haven't posted in a long time but I just took this thingy on Quizilla and I just HAD to share it with the world..
Naughty girl, your sex with Legolas would be kinky!More power to you, after all, who says elves aren't
into bondage, hot wax and other taboo delights?Chained to a wall in the depths of Moria is where
your forbidden encounter might take place as
you happily submit to the will of your elven
master.Just be sure to videotape. ;)
What Kind Of Sex Would You Have With Legolas?
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Imaginary kinky sex with a too-gorgeous-for-his-own-good elf!
Naughty girl, your sex with Legolas would be kinky!More power to you, after all, who says elves aren't
into bondage, hot wax and other taboo delights?Chained to a wall in the depths of Moria is where
your forbidden encounter might take place as
you happily submit to the will of your elven
master.Just be sure to videotape. ;)
What Kind Of Sex Would You Have With Legolas?
brought to you by
Imaginary kinky sex with a too-gorgeous-for-his-own-good elf!
What more can a girl want?
Which Member of the Endless Are You?
Which Naruto Character Are You?
Test by naruto - kun.com>
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Very High |
| Schizoid: | Moderate |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | High |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | Very High |
| Dependent: | High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
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